I’m going to begin to implement a radical change. I’m going to live as if everything that God says is true. Everything He has revealed to me through the Word of God. Everything the Holy Spirit has shown me. Every revelation I’ve received. All of the impressions, thoughts I’ve received that I believe are from God. I have to stop keeping these things disconnected from the stress, the cares of everyday life.

I didn’t come to this conclusion through some vision, some revelation, some “aha” moment. Right now I’m feeling the opposite. My stomach is in a knot, I’m stressed about work, I’m upset over what my wife is dealing with at home with the aftermath of hurricane Sandy (I’m away on business). I’m doing this because I’m tired of living with the stress. It’s not necessary. What I have been doing isn’t working. When I get stressed I grab control and micro manage things. It may help get the immediate crisis solved but it leaves a trail of chaos, more stress, and unhappines in its wake.

So I start now. As of now I am going to be vigilant to stop worrying. This is a process. This is exerting my will even when my gut is in a knot. I will start with forgetting about work until Monday and trust God to work on it over the weekend. I am going to not worry about getting home despite the damage from hurricane Sandy. I am going to stop worrying about Joanie and the kids. Not because I don’t love them (which I do) but because it doesn’t do any good and God can take care of them. I am going to stop getting all worked up over what happens at work. Instead I am going to focus on what matters most. And what matters most is how I behave. Do I walk by faith? Do I walk in love? Do I trust the Holy Spirit who lives in me? These are the things that matter. The rest is His problem. It’s not that I don’t have faith, I do. I just haven’t been using it like I should.

This isn’t going to come without intention. I am going to have to practice this. There may be times when I don’t seem to do so well. None of that matters. What matters is that I keep going for if I don’t quit it has to work because God is faithful.

This is going to be fun.